Nothing of me is original. I am the combined effort of everybody I’ve ever known ~ Chuck Palahniuk
One of the sad truths of life is none of us is uniquely original, we are more or less a recycled bi-product of genetics, our upbringing and the fingerprints of those around us. Each misplaced long ago discarded friend, lover, family member, co-worker, or acquaintance leaves these little indelible smudgey fingerprints on our soul. It could even be an event or comment so miniscule and unimportant to us we’ve not given it a thought in years, but at some point it put a unique little ding in our internal armor. We are not necessarily molded only from the negative events of our life, the positives help some, they just meld us together differently. The uplifting events and words often strengthen us and enforce us to take a kind eye to who we are and those around us, and the negatives tend to fill us with a belief of how the world sees us and the parts of us we try to keep hidden. Why is this? Because not one of us is an island, there is no way to insulate our soul from the forces in life pushing continually against us. Think of it as an emotional gravity, the good emotion and the bad are both needed to keep us grounded in our journey through life. And honestly, at some point we are either the receiver (the ding) or the giver (the knot) of negativity. Most people don’t intend to be the knot, it just happens. Why? Because of the historical events in our lives that shaped each of us into who we are.
I’ve been on a bit of an emotional roller coaster this week and someone has dinged me a little, and I’ve let it rule my emotional well-being for a few days. But what makes me grow is how I choose to let this person inhabit my space. And for me, I think what’s best is, I won’t turn my back on them, but I won’t stand and wait patiently for them to acknowledge me either. The take from? Yes it’s here. There is nothing really original about you, but on the other hand, every thing is original about you, because no single person on this Earth has had every experience and interaction with others that you have had. So don’t measure your happiness by the happiness of others, measure it by your own standard. You can not make another person be happy, you can give them a brief moments joy, but their happiness they have to create within themselves. If someone in your life is repeatedly notching little dings of angst in your soul, do yourself a favor, take a break and look around, because there are plenty of people who want to uplift you and make you smile. Remember, emotional gravity can be good or bad, why not fill your heart with good for a change? Just some random thoughts for what they’re worth. I know, probably not much.
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