I can’t help but admit there were a few times the past few days I felt like such a fraud. I don’t think it was my intention, it’s just how I ended up feeling, I suppose. I am really not one for dramatic scenes of fancy, or strife, nor am I overly public about real life health issues, my only excuse, I was scared, so please forgive me. I’ve just had my first surgery and a few body parts missing, a little residual pain, some emotional moments left to face, but I can honestly say I am ready to begin to put it all behind me. The fear stemmed from a past blood clot, but it seems even surgeons these days know how to work around such simple things and I know my doctor, she is the stuff of genius and came recommended by a certain Dr. Ben, so it would seem it was all what I notch up to a lack of faith on my part. But, well, you all know me by now, having faith is always something I am a little clumsy about. The point? As a whole, I don’t regret saying goodbye, because on the off chance something DID happen, I at least covered my bases and tried to let each of you know how deeply I feel for you, you are my family, my virtual family, my real friends. But if I scared or worried you needlessly, I am sorry from the very pit of my soul, right there at the mushy sloppy place where my heart laps over my soul making me who I am.
We all inhabit this world as a gift, to ourselves, to our family and to other people, how we choose to share this gift is our calling. I think my blessing in this is each of you that took a moment to express love, hope, well wishes and just about every other kind of comment their could be that would encourage me (even if it was just get yer arse out of bed and get back quick), you all made me think about getting up when I didn’t want to, move around when it hurt and to push forward in the hopes that soon I will fill up to putting effort into my blog again. I don’t think such speed in trying to get through this would have been possible if I hadn’t been motivated to feel the words of you all splashing across my monitor, filling up my heart. I am not quite 100%, so if you see me inworld, I may not answer for a few days, just know, it’s not you, it’s me. I need a little more time, I am a little tired, a lot sore, and just trying to deal with the now permanent changes to my life. I will be back 100%, I could think of no place I would rather be than with you, so this time, I ask please have faith, I am here, I am trying and I miss you all, so so much!
Take from? Yep. You all taught me something while I was away. You all taught me that love comes in all sizes and shapes, with no boundaries betwixt physical and virtuality, the main ingredient? A deep concern and caring for your fellow man. Imagine what we can do in a world where we care for others, hold them when they are in pain, or in celebration, or to just help them to believe what they can’t see right in front of their own faces. I hope to be back really soon! Continue to share and love and laugh, I may not always respond, but know, I am watching and laughing with you. Just a little note, new round of L’accessoires and look at all the really amazingly cool stuff I picked up today! I hope you will go and have some fun too! I had so much fun, I even included the taxi for you! Nice, nice Cao! Taxi: