There was another school shooting in the United States yesterday. What a baffling and confusing world we live in today. So many conflicting ideas and concepts are thrust upon us from every direction and many of them seem directly contradictory. Authorities of equal regard tell us one thing and then another and what they say clashes violently. It;s hard to know what to believe anymore, one need only sit shivering in the wind thinking about global warming to know what I mean. But seriously, this isn’t about weather phenomena, it’s about life. The dark spaces between the light, the knowing, feeling, your life is sitting on some huge precipice edging towards tumbling off into unknown emptiness.
Do you have these moments in life? I sit quietly off on my own, telling my soul to be still and wait for this unknown. I try to hope for a favorable outcome, but not wanting to be disappointed, it seems I must wait with no hope a’tall. It brings to mind T.S. Eliot when he pens in East Coker (from the Four Quartets) “there is yet faith. But the faith and the love and the hope are all in the waiting… So the darkness shall be the light, and the stillness the dancing.” I’m dark today, I know, but dang it all, children should be allowed to attend school without the fear of being killed. It’s senseless, we come home and rant and rave about all the injustices and unfairness that have befallen us during the day, ignoring what we are teaching our children about how to react to life’s disappointments. Instead of coping with our lives, we medicate it, liquor it up, angrify it and take it out on all those within earshot. No wonder we have children who grow up to think it’s OK to take it out on others. Where has empathy gone? What of kindness? Are they just some dusty words left unused in the hallway closet? Wake up, for the love of pete! Because the next school just might be your childs.
Take from? I know, I went too far, who the ‘ell am I to say anything a’tall? Here I preach, not a child in sight except my godchild the little
pirate princess. But as I set still, in the quietness, on the precipice, trying to let go of all the things I know. I confront reality, in the hopes that in my ignorance I will lose my pre-conceived notions about what keeps transpiring and somewhere in the experience I will find true reality, true solutions. Someone, please, find true solutions. Please let it be time.