“It doesn’t matter how many times you leave, it will always hurt to come back and remember what you once had and who you once were. Then it will hurt just as much to leave again, and so it goes over and over again. Once you’ve started to leave, you will run your whole life.” ~ Charlotte Eriksson
I’ve run so far for so long that when I see me now, all sedentary and engrossed, I wonder what happened to the gone girl I used to be? The one in this mirror I face every morning isn’t the one who chose to keep running for so many years. Is this person, this me, a better person than my prior self? I’m not sure yet, but I know these are my finest moments. No longer will I allow a person to take my heart, rearrange it’s contents and give them back to me in a way that no longer fits, bitter shards falling to the ground, leaving me bereft, alone. But I wasn’t alone, was I? Not really any way. I always had me. Why am I saying this right now, right here? Well I reckon it may be late coming, but it is never too late to be said. The author of the quote, Charlotte Eriksson, I think she only got it half right, but then how often does our view change in our life time? Perhaps she hasn’t made the connection yet. The realization that at some point, if you are lucky, what if someone were to come along and pick up all those broken rearranged little pieces for you? Then you don’t have to run away from yourself anymore. You can stop running. If someone sees you as something worth staying with, maybe you’ll stay with yourself, too. I don’t know, just something I was thinking about for some random space of time, hopefully someone out there needed to hear it said. Have a great day!
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