Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free. ~Jim Morrison
It seems like I’ve been pushing myself so hard for four years. Four years on June 24th I’ve been here blogging nearly every single day. Three and a half years of spilling out my real life story. My life, it mirrors so many of my readers lives. After all, what are we but women (and a few men as well) living our life, insecure in spots, OK in others, striving for love, security, life, happiness, a chance to fall in love with ourselves and to awake one day and say, “you are OK, but I am OK too?” I found a love, I then lost said love. I’ve had some date disaster’s, some wardrobe malfunctions, a love-hate relationship with spanx, an accidental donation of my beloved B.O.B. to Good Will, a peek into the world of my mothers mind, the loss of a father and the realization that when I let it all go and gave up, I found the love I had always sought after, I decided to love myself and through my growth I found a mature adult relationship with a man. A new joy, a new direction, my heart more out of my Second world than in. I love the friends I have made in Second Life, I will never give them up because each of you has taught me something, given me something, even if it was just a much needed piece of your mind. I needed it, and at times may not have wanted it, but I took it, and I took it to heart.
There is a change within, the tides are turning, the winds reversing. It started quite a few months ago by not writing words on my blog anymore, then I quit blogging on weekends. This week, already four days in and this is just my second post. I’m OK, it feels right. absence fits about my shoulders like a warm feathery soft cloak. Life is Good. Second Life has so many talented bloggers I enjoy reading the work of others just as much as I do creating my own space. Though I refuse to go away from Second Life on any permanent nature at this point, and I will continue to blog here, it’s time to free up some space for the bucket list I have in my real life. I won’t quit, I am just doing a little reassigning of my time constraints. To those in my posse, know I love you all, each and every one of you and that will never change. Have a wonderful weekend and I’ll see you around inworld. If you happen to see a lonely Little Moo inworld, I hope you will give her a “hallo.”